By the way?

This is not the post I was planning to share today.  But God had other plans for me.

My birthday is tomorrow, June 30.

I am turning 49 years old and am so thankful to be celebrating another year of life.  For some reason, though,  I often have a hard time on my birthday and being celebrated by my family.  I don?t know why.  It would probably take years of counseling to find out the reason.  (I say that somewhat jokingly?but only somewhat)

  I?m sure my growing up years play a part in my feelings.  Dysfunctional is the best way to describe a large part of my life.  But, I have always tried to be careful to not blame my ?todays on my yesterdays?. 

BUT THEN? GOD!!
God gave me a wonderful husband and children who think I am a superstar.  My children truly celebrate me everyday.  I feel that with my whole heart.  They are my biggest cheerleaders in all that I do.  They believe in me!  So does my husband.

So does my mom!

It?s not a worry about pleasing others and needing acceptance and applause kind of thing.   It?s just maybe an ?am I worth it? sort of thing. 

Now, understand me?I know in my heart of hearts that I am worth it.  I am worth it because of who I am in Christ.  I know all of that.  I really do.  Remember that it?s something that I really don?t understand myself.

And then this morning, the day before my birthday, I woke up wi...